Monday, January 16, 2012

The sad realization

Today I was on the arc trainer at the gym and a girl who was probably the same height as me came in. She had zero love handles, and the body I dream of. It hit me like a ton of bricks. I wanted to cry and as I type this, I am. I just can't get over how much my weight has truly affected every aspect of my life. I am down and out. I believe, this may be rock bottom. The worst thing is, I weighed less than I do right now when I was only 2 month post partum with the twins. How sad is that?? I mean, really. That is ridiculous. There is no reason I should weigh this much, feel this bad. Today is the beginning of my transformation. When I feel weak, I will come read this post. I cannot feel this way any longer. It isn't healthy and it is only hurting me. I have a short temper because I'm so down on myself. It isn't fair to me and it isn't fair to my family. I have to do this for them: for my sweet babies and my amazing husband. They need a happy, healhty momma and wife. And soon, they will have it! I MUST DO THIS!

Sunday, January 8, 2012

Sunday morning workout

I got some practice on my 15 count today!! Fun fun!! I love muay Thai!!

Saturday, January 7, 2012

The battle

Saturday's that I don't have to teach spin are a battle. It's hard to get out of bed, it's hard to decide what I'm going to do once I get out of bed!! I can't wait until working out is just part of my normal day and I don't have an inner battle Ugh

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Muay Thai

Today was Muay Thai Tuesday! LOVE IT! We worked on our 15 count today. It was so much fun. Such a great workout and with such great people! I'm in my happy place right now! :)

Monday, January 2, 2012

Goal for 2012: Blog more, run more, weigh less

Sooo..I never even blogged my race results. I ran the Buffalo Half Marathon on May 29,2010 in 2:57. It was hard, I was undertrained, it was hot, I was tired from the best concert ever the night before, it was ugly. Very, very ugly.
So, for 2012, I will be attempting a second half, this time I will be prepared, this time, I will not go to a concert the night before, this time, I will train in the weather that will most likely be the same as race day. July 15th, 2012...Erie, Pa...HERE I COME!!!!!!
I also, have set a goal to run 365 miles this year, which with training for a half, should be a piece of cake! :)
Jan 1, I ran one mile. Down to 364 to go!
Today, I shoveled snow for at least an hour, holy snow storm!!!
I will blog again tomorrow..I will blog again tomorrow..I will blog again tomorrow!

Monday, May 9, 2011

20 days!

Holy crap!!! I'm scared! I can do this, right? RIGHT??? Oh my heavens, what was I thinking???? YIKES!

Friday, May 6, 2011

Got my groove back!!!

I have been slacking 100%. I was convinced this half would never ever happen, but today I am feeling almost confident! I ran 9 miles!!! AND I didn't get hurt and I didn't die and I ran the whole time!!! I was slow, of course, but I did it! My time was 1 hour and 40 minutes. I also signed up for another half. Hershey Half Marathon here I come!!!!!!!!! :) I am FINALLY going to be meeting a very good friend and we will be running together, I could not be more excited!