Monday, January 16, 2012

The sad realization

Today I was on the arc trainer at the gym and a girl who was probably the same height as me came in. She had zero love handles, and the body I dream of. It hit me like a ton of bricks. I wanted to cry and as I type this, I am. I just can't get over how much my weight has truly affected every aspect of my life. I am down and out. I believe, this may be rock bottom. The worst thing is, I weighed less than I do right now when I was only 2 month post partum with the twins. How sad is that?? I mean, really. That is ridiculous. There is no reason I should weigh this much, feel this bad. Today is the beginning of my transformation. When I feel weak, I will come read this post. I cannot feel this way any longer. It isn't healthy and it is only hurting me. I have a short temper because I'm so down on myself. It isn't fair to me and it isn't fair to my family. I have to do this for them: for my sweet babies and my amazing husband. They need a happy, healhty momma and wife. And soon, they will have it! I MUST DO THIS!

1 comment:

  1. Put the past behind you and start today a new day! Set up yearly goals and break them down into monthly goals to get you to yuor end goal....make them realistics but also you will need to work fo it....its not going to come easily.